About Wholeness Energetics: End-of-Life
I am at the end-stage of life. After a lifetime of severe immune deficiency and immune dysregulation, I am experiencing numerous rare, complicated and overlapping medical conditions. These are causing my neurological system to malfunction, and organ failure throughout my body. My condition is progressive and degenerative.
Jennifer helped me discover the possibility that I came into this life with a purpose of experiencing “disconnection.” And that my life-purpose has been realized and completed! Through all the grief and losses of my illness, I have learned to reconnect. I am enjoying the connection I have with the few people who are able to come along with me on this journey, but I’m just not ready to “let go” yet. Instead, I find that I am learning new things every day. There are always new lessons.
I have had a horrible fear of death, feeling that death would be just one more thing that would happen to me, that death would seize me and thrust me out into the void, or into some dark tunnel. Sessions with Jennifer were comforting in that she helped me to see that even in death, I still have choices. Becoming aware of what I want, and what I don’t want, was helpful in realizing that after I die, I may opt to stick around for awhile, doing some of the things I’ve been unable to do because I’ve been so ill. She helped me realize that I can stay in our mountain cove, hike the trails in my spirit-self, and then leave when my hungers have been filled. She stressed that according to her learning, there is a continuum of experience after physical death, and that my choices help determine what these will be. I will likely still have power and control over myself, and my choices. This realization helped to quiet a lot of my fears, and reached into my deep soul. I feel grateful to Jennifer for being open to discussing and helping me face this, and come to a better understanding of death. It helped me, immeasurably, with my fears.
On our land, there is a Grandmother Tree, where I used to visit, when I was able to hike. After physical death, I hope to go east from our house, and visit this Grandmother Tree, take a short flying pilgrimage, make offering, take solace, and assuage my great hunger for trees, greenery, nature spirits, tree spirits, the fresh air, blue sky, along with the freedom of flight and my unencumbered body/mind/soul. Jennifer helped me unlock from one perception of life-after-death. Her guidance was freeing, and brought me comfort.
I like talking with Jennifer. She says things that others are not willing to say. She asks questions that are not usually asked. She can see many sides of so many situations. She isn’t trying to funnel me into Hospice, or thrust me forward into projects and activities. She is able to hold both things at the same time. She has helped me to embrace the fact that I will have good days, bad days, days I am ready to die, and days I am absolutely not ready to go.
Jennifer is interested and gentle. She communicates directly, without an agenda, using her intuition and big heart to grasp what life experience has not offered her. She isn’t offering traditional therapy; sessions with Jennifer are not childhood review, or Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Instead, her offerings are about wholeness of body, mind and soul. She helped me broaden my connection with other spiritual beings, divine beings, and more expanded experiences. Sessions with Jennifer feel whole and complete. It is lovely to spend the moments that I have with her, when they happen.
- M. artist, musician, writer, modern-day transcendentalist, Quaker